Monday, October 22, 2012

weight loss 10-21-12

SW: 271 (6-3-12)

GW: 185 (9-6-13)

LW: 216

CW: 215
- 1bs..

No idea how this happened I ate everything that was not attached and splurged in cocktails for 4 nights in a row..

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Weigh in 10-13-2012

SW: 271 (6-3-12)

GW: 185 (9-6-13)

LW: 218

CW: 216
- 2lbs..

Not sure if I am really down this 2 lbs or if it is a dehydration thing as I was not down all week even though i had a good week of workouts and diet. But last night was my Methotrexate night and really made me sick so I am thinking that by Monday when I am recovered I will most likely be back up probably at least a lb of it.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Throw in the towel

Boy last night I just wanted to throw in the towel and say Fuck it, it is not worth it , I can't fight against a body that is not willing any longer.

I was so sore and beaten down last night it hurt to blink and do any other, even sitting still my joints were on fire. I was so close to mixing a cocktail and prdering a pizza and saying, I can find a way to be happy with this... I do not need to run races, I can just crew people and be part of them that way.

Then I told myself to shut the fuck up and stop whining like a little bitch. drank water for the evening and said just get through the night.

Well here I am today with a some what renewed spirit and ready to tackle life again. I am not grateful for this disease it does not make me a stronger person. But I have it so guess what I have to deal with it and move on.

Monday, October 8, 2012

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Weigh in 10-6-2012

SW: 271 (6-3-12)

GW: 185 (9-6-13)

LW: 220

CW: 218
- 2lbs... 

So there you have it I lost the 2 lbs that I had gained back. from oktoberfesting, still a loss and on track of -2 lbs a week with little to no exercise at all. I did manage one nice bluff hike on Sunday with our younger dog Cooper approx three miles. it was a great hike.

Then Wednesday I managed a really nice 4 mile run and bluff climb  with my friend Deb who also has Lupus. three days of weights and core work. I need to maybe add a 4th day of core and hip flexors, having a lot of pain in those areas, that I think are a muscle/skeletal problem. also coming from a vertebrae problem (slightly bulged) so continuing with core will only have rewards in the long run and I need to remember that.

 Really focusing on clean whole food from as local farm as possible.